....for any one person to know what the future holds. I was chatting with a friend today. She is angry and mad that God allows such terrible things to happen to people. It's not right, it's not fair and gosh darn it she's mad. I think it's safe to say that we have all felt like that. She asked my thoughts about where God is in all of this.
I shared with her that I believe God protects our hearts always when we are seeking His will in our lives, giving Him the praise and the glory He will always protect our hearts. But in a sinful world we are all subject to pain and suffering. It's not that God "allows" it. We allowed it when we turned our backs on Him in the garden of Eden. Pain came into our world and God gives us free will. In that freedom sin and darkness are present.
Last night Josh Osteen was on some random channel. I listened to the last five minutes of his sermon while David was getting ready for bed. He had this big smile on his face, blinking eyes and said something along the lines of this...I get so excited for a person when I see the depth of their trial. If they are truly seeking God in that trial, the height of how he is going to use them is something to truly get excited and smile over. I smiled along with him.
I even laughed and chuckled to myself. Every single time I go through something hard, I talk with God over how I would like the outcome to be. I pray for that outcome and really does it ever go down like we want it to? Instead something even more amazing comes along and I come back to realizing that I am way better off seeking God's will in All things, because truly in ALL things He's got it covered.
Please continue to pray. I have a spinal tap scheduled a week from Tuesday to determine the pressure in my head which will then give direction as to the treatment. Scared? Heck yes!!!!