Why would I question?

Why does it seem so hard for me to accept and believe that God would heal me? I have been telling my children and those around me that God truly gives us the desires of our hearts when we are seeking Him. My desire was for healing. My desire is that God would use my health issues to bring others closer to Him. My desire was that God would use my health issues to restore relationships. I understood that I may not have seen the results of these requests but it was my hearts desire that this pain not be wasted.

I think so much of this world beats down our esteem and value. I know that has been the case with me. I am always surprised, truly surprised when something amazing happens in my life. I use to have a retail business. Even after having many successful months I would still call my dad in disbelief. "Dad can you believe people keep coming and buying"?

Do we relate matters of our hearts and how we view the world in the same way we do when God steps in and does the amazing? Do we trust Him enough to see His hand in the cool things in our lives? The blessings? The coming through in the 12Th hour? The healing of my body? Do we underestimate just how much the Word of God speaks of His presence and healing in our lives every single day?

If you would have asked me a week ago I would have said of course I truly believe all of this. Really. However when it came to healing and believing that I was healed all I could say was why me? Is it so hard for me to believe that God would want to heal me? Humbly I write these words of joy in knowing that there is a work to be done and God healed me for a greater purpose. I know my heart has hurt in so many areas relating to people I have loved and cared for. Often challenging my value and esteem. So therefore I relate earthly feelings to Godly wonders when God just wants me to focus on the Godly.

This is a huge step into a greater understanding in my walk with Jesus. I have learned this week a great and valuable truth in my life. It's amazing how the scriptures just dance in sync with my heart. Please take a moment to read Proverbs 3. I know it's December 4Th, but go back and read this one. I just finished reading it to Emily over the phone. It's message is about trust and honor to God. I lack knowledge and understanding of the things of this world, the medical mysteries in my life, but..

vs. 5-8

...trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the Lord and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your body and refreshment to your bones..."

I had a friend send me an amazing email in Glorifying and Praising our Lord Jesus in the matters of my body being healed. I am going to post that in my next blog. Blessings and Love to all who read.